Thursday, June 10, 2010

my outfit: jean shorts!

Oh man have I been on the blink... I know you probably can't tell from where you sit, but the past two days (or two years... depending on how bad the day is) I have been having major "what am I doing with my life?" spasms. Basically this blog and my kids are my life right now. And while the kids are a good and noble cause - the thought of spending every waking moment with them this summer has me shaking in my flip flops. Conversely, this lil' here blog is fantastical... but sometimes I'm like "really, a blog Jill, that's the best you can do?" (Harsh, I know.) So I dream of going back to work full time and then immediately feel guilt knowing all that my kids and husband would have to go through for me to achieve this "career" drive (not even to mention that the blog would pop like a bubble on a windy day if I went back to work) that I have and then pretty much I melt into a big fat mess. This is probably WAY more than you all want to know, but heck, I'm human.

Also, it makes me want to wear yoga pants everyday. And if you know me, then you may know that something is a leeeeetle off (or a lot). Also, I eat a lot of Jujyfruits during these times... (again, NOT good)

Whew, but I'm okay. Really. I have these meltdowns and then I remember that life is good, I have an amazing life (and blog) and that I am blessed every day. Even on the super hard days.

Any way, enough of my sob story. How about this outfit? I've gone and cut off a pair of jeans - and I like them!

Last year I remember a JCrew shot with a gal in a blazer and jean shorts and thought: must recreate. I'll be honest... the thought did cross my mind to photoshop some skinnier legs on. But I didn't. Oh well. Again, human here!

So anyway, the shorts... these are my old "painting" jeans. The hole in the knee was crazy big and I thought - I sure would like a pair of new shorts without spending money - and since I'm not much into crime, I had to scrounge my own closet. Voila!

I say, why pay $25, $35 or $50+ dollars for jean shorts this summer... find some old ones that need a new life!

Jeans (now shorts), Gap (similar)
Blazer, Gap (similar, similar)
Top, JCrew (similar)
Necklace, Forever 21
Wedges, Target


Dobbygirl said...

You are not the only one - I have these "what the heck is going on with my life?" issues daily. I was not planning on being a SAHM, but the economy coupled with my industry dying it worked out that way (sure I could get a job if I really wanted, but it would be in another state from my hubby and we are certainly not moving to China). So here we are. I'm about 90% heading back to school this fall for something completely unrelated and more stable. Nothing like a good 'ol life and career crisis ;o) Hang in there, you are not alone!

dmoms said...

My kids are out of school in a week and I am fearful of them! seriously, what will I do with them all day. It is harder when they are older too!

But, it is way better to be home with them vs. them home alone which is how it was when I was working full time.

Elena said...

Well, I don't have kids but with 11 nieces and nephews I can only imagine. Everyone goes through an existential crisis now and then, so don't fret. You do an awesome job around here and who knows, maybe someone smart will offer you a fashion editor job or something! :)

Torrie said...

After working for 12 years in a major corporation (in a great job with a great salary)...spending every summer working each entire day away...I finally decided to leave and become a SAHM (something I thought I'd NEVER become). It hasn't been easy and I did really enjoy my job as well as the people that I had become so close with. What I have gained over the past 3 years is absolutely immeasurable in comparison to the 12 years of working. I know each person is different, but just thought I'd share from a former 'career mom's' perspective. The skills, contacts, confidence, personal awareness, and the monetization of your blog (including ALL that it takes to develop, complete, and maintain you projects, and to market yourself), and the creative outlet for expressing your passion/s are extremely valuable (in or out of the workplace), and something that many successful working women are not able to achieve.

karen★ said...

It's so so nice to hear something so personal about you! I completely know how you feel & just know that you shouldn't ever ever feel guilty for wanting more (without children!). You will figure it out...& whatever you figure out will be amazing; just like you. No one can tell you what to do because no one can know just what will make you blissfully happy (except you & perhaps a wonderful significant other!)Until then, you can rest assured that you don't need to photoshop skinnier legs...I've said it before & I'll say it again YOUR LEGS ARE HOT!!!
A comment on your outfit-brilliant...absolutely brilliant!

Melissa said...

Loved this post! I too go through "what am I doing" phases. After getting laid off last year, I started doing some part-time things here and there, and then became pregnant so going back full-time wasn't really realistic. Now with the baby's due date 3 months away, I have fears of staying home all day- which is what I had wanted even when I was working. Sometimes I look at other people and think they have it all figured out and I don't. Good to know I'm not alone!

Elle Sees said...

I know exactly how you feel. I've been unemployed since September, living off of my retirement from my previous job. I have no desire to go back to school since I already have 3 degrees. So what do I do with my life? No idea.

I've even tried to work for minimum wage jobs and as soon as they see my education, they scoff. So that's why I started my blog--to give me a reason to keep going. I don't have kids, so I'm not a stay-at-home-mom, just a stay-at-home-ME. Ha ha. I love writing my little blog--which thanks to your tips has grown to over a 100 readers in almost two months. Just know you're not alone out there! I love reading your blog daily.

Team Botanical said...

Really a big fan of this post. Nothing like a little honesty served up with a side of fashion.

You hit the nail on the head. I work full time, and I have the same dilemmas. What am I doing with my life? What am I doing to my family? Is this how it's going to be? Rush, rush, rush?

dressperado said...

I hope this isn't too long:

I left my well-paying corporate job and started my own business five years ago. It was doing really well until the economy tanked. Many of the stores that carried my products went out of business. My husband, who has always been in high demand as an electrical engineer, was laid off. (He has since been hired by another company.) I laid awake for hours last night ruminating: "What am I doing with my life?" The first thing I read this morning was your blog. It comforts me that other women have similar feelings. Your style recommendations have helped me hone my look. Thanks!

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Sarah Lenhart said...

I love the shorts! I might have to do that with a pair or two of my jeans that are too short to be worn as pants. :)

I've had similar "breakdowns" where I feel like I need to get a job or I'll go crazy. However, like you, I really don't want to make the sacrifices in my family life that would be necessary for something like that. One thing that really helps me is finding volunteer projects. It gives me deadlines and goals while also generally being something that I can do mostly from home or just spend a couple hours a week on. And I feel pretty darn good knowing I helped others out. :)

dear kate said...

i just chopped some old jeans for summer too! they'll be up on dearkate soon! and don't worry about life -- yours sounds fantastic! and remember, the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side :)

Maggie Rose said...

Hon, first off, your's would be the "skinny legs" that I'd photoshop onto pictures of myself! You look awesome!

Second, obviously we're in very different points in our lives, but I feel the exact same way. I think there is something in the air right now because I've been all kinds of restless and questioning. And GLFL definitely isn't JUST a blog! I am in awe of all the plates you have spinning while raising those kids too. I can barely work my 32 hours (and commute my 16 hours each week, bleh) and blog once a day!

thirtynothing said...

1. I have these moments practically yearly, if not biennially, and always ALWAYS in the weeks preceding a birthday. Live in the now, give yourself credit, and ask yourself, who exactly created this list of "what you SHOULD be doing." I guarantee it wasn't truly you, the real you is already doing what you love and what fulfills you and makes you a better friend, wife and mom. You just need a reboot sometimes! Oh, and to stop listening to the "what you should do" voices.

2. You do have a lovely blog!

3. Your legs ARE skinny. seriously. you look fantastic!

thirtynothing said...

oh and...i should add, if you believe that you should be doing something else, because YOU want to, and not because other people believe you need to, then by all means, do it. Regret for what you haven't done, is far worse than regret over doing something and deciding it's not for you. So there you have it, my advice neutralizes itself out. ha!

Today Hilary... said...

I go through it too. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.....I'm a SAHM with 2 girls under 2 1/2.
My 2 year old asked me what my job is today, I tried to explain. She then decided my job is to hang out...


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